So i still have depression and im constantly bored, i feel like a loser who cant do anything right. I want to let my creativeness out, make something i can share with the world or family, but im probably dreaming too big. I cant stand being depressed and bored, it stinks, everyone tells me to work out but i lack the motivation to do so.
i usually just watch youtube all day while complaining to family members that have no idea what to do about me.
I’ll second this. OP you don’t even need to leave the house (altho I will advocate for a trip to library in that it will do your mental health wonders).
Reading has a low point of entry (find a book and open it), a close to zero failure rate (so long as you’re base-level literate) endlessly scalable and has a tonne of bonuses. Education? Check. Escapism? Check. Free? Check (your library might even have an online service for eBooks, or you can hoist the black flag.
Also, if socialising is tough for you, being well-read will give you more to talk, make you more interesting, and my favourite? Join a book club! You can engage with people over a shared interest.