People are painful to me. I find their presence painful. I’ve been this way since infancy. I created a suite of methods for keeping them away (methods like “passive-aggressive hostility”). These methods became deep habits. Later in life I hungered for company and couldn’t figure out why I was so bad at it. I just recently realized what’s up (thanks meditation). Do any of you relate?
I’d say yes, but it is flipped according to you’re situation. I have struggled my entire adult life with antisocial behavior. I am the type of person who gets energy from group activities. Organizing enough people to do so has always been challenging. I also am not into the bar and club scene. Meetup.com helped for several years. That faded away before covid, but the epidemic set everyone back 20 years in social gains. I see some recovery, but other circumstances are keeping me from being able to spend more time with groups. A big part of it is people seem to avoid social interations a lot more.