The internal guilt that comes from wanting to leave is insane enough already. But if I stay, I’ll be dead before Trump is out of office. I just have this gut feeling that my leaving would be a life or death situation because I genuinely don’t see myself surviving much longer. My will to live has been dwindling so much that I literally just dream of all MAGAs being brutally slaughtered or I recognize that the likelihood where I live is that I will be killed for disagreeing with those in my red state. It’s easy for you to say we should stay and fix things, but there also comes a time where you realize you can’t survive it. Now with tariffs on pharmaceuticals and me needing serious mental health drugs to keep me stable, the likelihood of me getting my meds is crashing and if I don’t have my meds, I become suicidal. So yeah, like you said, I appreciate your sentiment but it’s just not fucking happening.

It’s me. I’m the 1 in 5 Americans. I would so much rather be there than here.